Protracted Procrastination

Holding out too long for something to write down can be very irritating...

I have been wanting to for such a long time now that I feel I may have forgotten most of what I wanted to express or share. But if there's anybody to blame, it would certainly be me. I consider myself to be the Prince of Procrastination. Assuming the title of King would be too presumptuous on my part and too harsh for my own good. Don't want to label myself such and make the proclamation a self-fulfilling deep-shit hole I can't get myself out of.

And if there's anything that I haven't been procrastinating on is my attempt to give up that title claim. It has been a slow and rather enjoyable battle. For one, getting rid of one's true nature is going against the one law that all other laws in this world pay homage to... the Grand Laws of Nature. Trying to beat the "system" can be accomplished from time to time, but such success is fleeting, and, oh so, temporary. Trying to eradicate one's true nature is such. "Lapses" will be an all too common occurrence you will encounter. Man can never refute or go against nature... his nature. One can only be new for a moment. Once born as one... will die as one.

This attempt at transformation has become enjoyable since it has become my spice that adds flavor to my Life, my relationships with people. Every single day is devoted to attaining an acceptable measure of success against this hurdle. It has never been easy for me and for the people around me, especially, my Wife. I have always found myself saying things with a definite intent for action, but most always end up "forgetting" to do them. Well, it's probably due to the fact that I feel there is no sense in expending unnecessary energy to finish something way before it becomes too critical to adversely affect your life. Or maybe, I feel that the task is just plain useless at that point, that by doing such would mean substituting a more worthwhile activity like reading a book or working on the financials of your company or researching pertinent topics over the internet. Because of these, I end up finding myself under fire.

Now, to solve this bad habit, I plan to go away, by myself, for the weekend. In the quiet confines of a cottage, or a hut, maybe, I will examine myself, try to identify the possible causes, list down courses of action to take to remedy each possible cause, and design a repeatable and sustainable routine to help me completely cure this illness, if you will.

Problem is... it is that time of the year where every one is busy preparing for Christmas and New Year. So... I think it is best that I do it next Year. First thing next year, though......